OK forget it. First of all sorry for being M.I.A for months due to some other commitments, school and dance especially. Love life?? Hmmm.. Not really i guess...
Many things happened within these few months. I mean it A LOT! I'm not going to post each and every single one though.
Let's start with myself..
Let's end with myself.
- Still neither here nor there .
Back to SCHOOL!!!
Ruth is back!!! Arent you guys like happy??
Coz i am! haakz... School has resumed! At last i am schooling.. To my fellow folks who dont know where am i schooling yet, let me tell u guys.. Hmm.. Currently i am proud to be one of the Student Nurse in Nanyang Polytechnic! Hahakz.. Yeah2, Diploma in Nursing! It is so interesting. I look forward for each and every day, for different reasons i guess. Hahakz... There was a problem during my orientation. My name could not be found on the list. Well.. Expected.. So, i have no group or class at that time and all the 'Lost Sheeps' formed Group 29! And we came in 2nd for CHEER!! Hahakz... My very first so called friends that i have made is Zainal and Izzat. They are cool.. But Not those typical MATs!!
On the first day of school, the 'Lost Sheeps' met again to go to the office to double check our permanant groups. However, it wasnt my day on that day! The staff there told me that i am not registered as a student of NYP. In my mind i was like thinking that i have no school and need to wait for the next intake! Sh*t right?!! Initially she asked me to go home. I wanted to cry actually and partly frustrated with my admission and enrolment. Heesh! So abang,, if i didnt smile at you at the bookshop, i'm sorry. It was not the perfect time to say our first "Eh, Hi!" and stuff. Hahakz.. Blah blah blah... The staff asked me to re-do my enrolment then meet the Manager and i was assigned to group 12! Hahakz...
Zainal and I ended school at the same time. No place to go so we went SHOPPING! Hahakz.. Two guys going shopping together.. Weird huh?! Didnt expected that his taste and mine are about the same! hahakz.. That's cool.. So Zai, biler lagi nak g shopping??!! Hahakz...
A few days later, i went to meet my abang! Hahakz,, K, u guys wont understand. We have known each other for like almost 4 years and we only met a week ago? Dont believe me? Aahh.. Hehekz.. Klah, i dont want to talk about this much coz i think, i will have one special post for him. Coming soon!!
Till here.... Bye!! Much love to you folks!!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
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It has been a vey long time since my last post and I dont know where to start now, or how. I thought i am done with it and him. Unfortunately, i'm wrong. It's hard when both of us are close together by seeing each other everyday and it is even harder when we are far apart. One year has past. and the beautiful disaster is still rolling over and over. Sometimes i just thought that the story is not logic!I want to be with you. That's all i want to do. I'm only 17 and many said that it is time to enjoy. But i dont want that. Why is it hard for you to understand me? Why is it hard for everyone to do so? I may have my ego and same goes to you. I'm trying hard to change myself. But have you noticed it? Yeah, i admit that i may be unreasonable at times. Talking about appreaciating. Did you ever felt thankful to be a friend of mine at least?? Answer this to yourself honestly.- Why cant i smile whenever i walk away after meeting you?
- Why cant i look into your eyes whenever you say 'hi' or 'bye' to me?
- Why are there others around with us while i only want to spend time wth you?
- Why cant i be the one to talk to you on the phone at night?
- Why cant i be the first person to hear your laughter whenever you have something good to tell?
- Why am i not the one whom can listen to your heart?
- Why am i not the person whom you love?
- Have you ever wonder why i keep looking at your eyes while you are talking to your friends or looking somewhere else and i know you noticed it?
- Have you ever wonder why the word 'Asal?' or 'Awak OK ke tak?' keep coming out from my mouth?
- Have you ever wonder why i keep asking you not to walk so fast?
- Have you ever wonder why i keep quiet whenever you are talking with your friends?
- Have you ever wonder why do i always ask you to hang up the phone first before me?
- Have you ever wonder why i didnt make any move unless you cant be seen whenever you are going back home?
- Have you ever think who i am inside?
- If only i could see your smile and your bucked tooth everyday.
- If only i could hug you whenever i meet you.
- If only you could hold my hand firmly before saying goodbye.
- If only you trust my words and have faith in me.
- If only YOU LOVE ME.
Remember this, I will always be waiting for you.
Shahrul.
Sunday, March 16, 2008
I AM VERY TIRED!!!
..Updating Soon..
Shahrul aka Ruth
Thursday, February 14, 2008
